Peak stress
I'm about to do my usual thing of handing out advice I never follow myself, but: find someone to talk to. Anyone. It doesn't matter if you don't tell them you're depressed, or you don't talk about what's on your mind (directly, at least).
I've been forced to face up to the fact that - after last year's episode where I physically couldn't get out of bed to go to work in the mornings - I'm slipping back into my old frame of mind. I know what I should be doing to help myself, but it seems like such an effort. I'm 6 months into a new job where I'm trying my best to make the right impression, and it feels like all I do is work and then sit on the sofa in the dark, with the TV on mute as I absent-mindedly look at things on the internet.
I dread to think what it's doing to TLMG. Actually, I know what it's doing; I caught her looking incredibly sad last night and asked her what was wrong. Her answer of "you always seem to want to be alone" broadsided me a bit.
I'm going to take her out to dinner tomorrow night. Break the cycle a little.
EDIT: I know exactly what you mean about it feeling churlish, but take it from me that the act of beating yourself up for feeling bad when others have it worse is not the thing to do. Time to clear your own mind before helping others.
ad hoc wrote: I'm massively stressed at the moment (and coincidentally or not, quite severely depressed). However, looking at this thread I really have no reason to be that way, so it feels churlish to even say it. But I find myself grinding my teeth all day long without knowing it.
I've been forced to face up to the fact that - after last year's episode where I physically couldn't get out of bed to go to work in the mornings - I'm slipping back into my old frame of mind. I know what I should be doing to help myself, but it seems like such an effort. I'm 6 months into a new job where I'm trying my best to make the right impression, and it feels like all I do is work and then sit on the sofa in the dark, with the TV on mute as I absent-mindedly look at things on the internet.
I dread to think what it's doing to TLMG. Actually, I know what it's doing; I caught her looking incredibly sad last night and asked her what was wrong. Her answer of "you always seem to want to be alone" broadsided me a bit.
I'm going to take her out to dinner tomorrow night. Break the cycle a little.
EDIT: I know exactly what you mean about it feeling churlish, but take it from me that the act of beating yourself up for feeling bad when others have it worse is not the thing to do. Time to clear your own mind before helping others.
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