I have, for several months, not felt any joy in life. Not that I have any real problems - my job's secure and comfortable, I have holidays planned for 2019, my kids, cats and wife are all healthy and so by almost all indicators I'm tickety-boo.
But I'm constantly - daily - just feeling this overwhelming sense of "Oh. Is this it, then?" I can't explain how and why I should be answering that by "wow, yes it is, haven't you done well!" as opposed to "yeah, looks it is, loser" but that's where I end up. I don't quite know how to shake this. I've always (up until now) been really positive and happy about pretty much everything. I'm 46 and my daughters, in particular, are now reaching adulthood and don't need me to be Dad anymore, as they flit off to independence; is that it, I wonder? A sense of "my job here is done"?
But I'm constantly - daily - just feeling this overwhelming sense of "Oh. Is this it, then?" I can't explain how and why I should be answering that by "wow, yes it is, haven't you done well!" as opposed to "yeah, looks it is, loser" but that's where I end up. I don't quite know how to shake this. I've always (up until now) been really positive and happy about pretty much everything. I'm 46 and my daughters, in particular, are now reaching adulthood and don't need me to be Dad anymore, as they flit off to independence; is that it, I wonder? A sense of "my job here is done"?
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