Can you ever really be sure you're "in love" with someone? Or is it just a temporary madness borne out of "I'd like to see them again, tomorrow, I hope they still like me"?
Three months now, with my first proper girlfriend since the break-up from my ex-wife. The ex, herself, I would have to say, I can't honestly claim to have "loved" much, for the last three or four years. (My kids, needless to say, totally different matter, I love them more than I need my legs, arms or even my eyes).
Me and the new Signorita Rogin are having a whale of a time. Endless nights of good food, good conversation, great "the other".
But "love"? I can't honestly say yes to that. She's told me that she does, but I don't think I can reciprocate. I think there's something wrong, with me. I mean, isn't there about all this is, to any relationship? She accepts all my faults, and accepts me into her arms. But I still feel... somehow numb about the whole thing. I'm worried I won't ever "love" again. Is this just a passing phase I'm going through, after my break-up which is now 12 months distant? And am I being fair to her if she's feeling things for me ... am I stringing it along just because I'm getting my man-needs seen to pretty much every night?
Three months now, with my first proper girlfriend since the break-up from my ex-wife. The ex, herself, I would have to say, I can't honestly claim to have "loved" much, for the last three or four years. (My kids, needless to say, totally different matter, I love them more than I need my legs, arms or even my eyes).
Me and the new Signorita Rogin are having a whale of a time. Endless nights of good food, good conversation, great "the other".
But "love"? I can't honestly say yes to that. She's told me that she does, but I don't think I can reciprocate. I think there's something wrong, with me. I mean, isn't there about all this is, to any relationship? She accepts all my faults, and accepts me into her arms. But I still feel... somehow numb about the whole thing. I'm worried I won't ever "love" again. Is this just a passing phase I'm going through, after my break-up which is now 12 months distant? And am I being fair to her if she's feeling things for me ... am I stringing it along just because I'm getting my man-needs seen to pretty much every night?
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